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December 29, 2017

This is the scene of my house last night. A cozy dinner with my babies, husband and a dear friend that I cooked in a casual but loving way– that’s my style. Not too much effort, but comfortable and comforting. This theme transfers to my clothing, home, life… comfortable for me and comforting to those I love.
I have wanted this to be the scene of my home for so long. I’ve been married for 10 years and thought (even though Rob was not on board, but I can usually convince him my ideas are good!) that I would be married for 2-3 years and then start having babies.
Life didn’t really turn out the way I had wanted it to. If I had gotten my way and had babies quickly and easily and lived the life I had imagined for myself, there probably would not be any OULA. I think back to the energy THIS baby took to grow and I don’t think I would have done it if I had kids at home.
Sometimes when we are in the moment, it feels like things aren’t going the way we want them to. That things are taking too long, that life isn’t going the way we had planned. That everyone else has what we want and it’s not fair.
But last night, I looked around at this scene and realized that this would not all feel so sweet, so precious so full, if life had gone the way I had it planned in my little racehorse mind. I probably wouldn’t know Amanda Taylor, I probably wouldn’t know you all, and I would not be so immensely full of the blessings that this journey has give me. I am sure I would have a great life and many other things to be thankful for, but just not the life that was meant for me. This one.
So here’s my little love note for anyone today who feels like life just isn’t what you had imagined… trust the process, keep shooting rockets of desire out there for what you want, and believe that you are worthy of the best life you could imagine. Sending lots of love, comforting meals with loved ones, and fulfillment beyond your dreams.
-Kali