For those of you who know me, you know how important this program is to me. It forces me to “sit with” myself for an hour. My fears, my sadness, my insecurities, my sensuality, my past, my heart, my body, my soul. There’s no acting, no pushing through, no playing off of other peoples’ energy, no looking outward for worthiness or acceptance or love. Just me. In my body. The emotions being carried by the music through me and sometimes out of me. Cleansing, opening, purifying and healing.

A lot of the work that we do in our workshops and what I am becoming more and more fascinated by is how trauma is stored in the body, and therefore the body must be involved in its healing.

Trauma is experienced by nearly all of us. In fact, “Research by the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention has shown that one in five Americans was sexually molested as a child; one in four was beaten by a parent to the point of a mark being left on their body; and one in three couples engages in physical violence. A quarter of us grew up with alcoholic relatives, and one out of eight witnessed their mother being beaten or hit.”

I’ve experienced the massive physical trauma of my baby dying while giving “birth” and I’ve experienced minor trauma of shame, primarily, in association with my physical self. And it doesn’t go away until we heal it.

“If you have a comfortable connection with your inner sensations — if you can trust them to give you accurate information — you will feel in charge of your body, your feelings, and your self.

However, traumatized people chronically feel unsafe inside their bodies: The past is alive in the form of gnawing interior discomfort. Their bodies are constantly bombarded by visceral warning signs, and, in an attempt to control these processes, they often become expert at ignoring their gut feelings and in numbing awareness of what is played out inside. They learn to hide from their selves.

The more people try to push away and ignore internal warning signs, the more likely they are to take over and leave them bewildered, confused, and ashamed. People who cannot comfortably notice what is going on inside become vulnerable to respond to any sensory shift either by shutting down or by going into a panic — they develop a fear of fear itself.

The experience of fear derives from primitive responses to threat where escape is thwarted in some way. People’s lives will be held hostage to fear until that visceral experience changes… Self-regulation depends on having a friendly relationship with your body. Without it you have to rely on external regulation — from medication, drugs like alcohol, constant reassurance, or compulsive compliance with the wishes of others.”

With Oula.One, I’ve been able to do the work that my full-being needs by tuning inward. Sometimes for healing, sometimes for maintenance of health. It’s connected me with my inner atmosphere in ways that nothing else has ever done for me. It’s helped me, especially during trauma-triggering times for myself like pregnancy, helped me keep the fear at bay and self-regulate.

If you haven’t tried an Oula.One class, I have given you all a coupon in the first comment below to try a class, or attend a live one if possible.

Thanks for reading, for being present, and for doing your own works so that we can all be of highest service to one another.

*All quoted information in this post came from this link, which is VERY WORTH THE READ.

 

xo,

 

Kali