// C O M F O R T . Z O N E S //
March 24, 2018

Hello my friends! For those of you who know me even slightly well, you’ll know that my least favorite thing in the world is packing!!! So, as much as I would like to be watching my new guilty pleasure, Santa Clarita Diet, I am on my computer, thinking and procrastinating all of the packing I have to do for a family of 4 on a 4-day road trip to Portland… and wanted to say hi. 🙂
Tomorrow is the first day of a workshop I am attending called “Writing and the Body.” A brief description of the mini-retreat is this: “We will do yoga in order to open the body in Jen’s workshops and we will write about the body in Lidia’s workshops. Combining movement and writing moves you into a deeper space that allows words take over. Expect to flow, sweat, sing, write, dance and laugh as you let go of what is no longer serving you. Manifest what you want in your life. The weekend will be about letting go of fear, taking risks, connection and trust. The focus of the weekend is about being human: mind, body and soul. It’s about letting go of fear. It’s about finding your voice as a writer and as a woman.”
Whoa, right up my alley!!!!!
Here’s the funny thing… I have realized how absolutely comfortable I’ve become with my life and those I interact with. My home life, my social life, my work life… everywhere I go I feel totally comfortable, safe and loved! Even though I preach “get comfortable being uncomfortable”…. I’ve realized how COMFORTABLE I’ve grown with this type of discomfort! SO… I’m doing something that I don’t usually make time for, which is being on the other side of one of these experiences. Where I can just go and absorb and learn and just be immersed in space, rather than hold space.
And here’s something that feels almost embarrassing to admit, but I will because I feel safe here… you can get a pretty false sense of security when you know people are paying to be at something you are offering. It’s almost a validation that I am doing something meaningful and valuable with my life. But as I prepare for this weekend, I am flooded with thoughts like “What if no one likes me?” “What if I say something dumb?” and all of the other self-doubting stuff that I thought I was over. But truth is, I’m not!!! Dammit!!!! I’m not! (Insert— huge sigh.)
So why am I telling you all of this? I don’t know, really. But I do know how much I want you to hear me screaming at all of you who have attended an empowerment weekend, training, retreat, etc…. YOU ARE SO BRAVE!!!! This shit is terrifying!!!! I’m already nervous about what I’m going to say in my opening circle!
So, anyways, I’m procrastinating, I’m nervous and wanted to talk to you guys, but I’m also here to say GO YOU!!!!!!!! For doing brave things. For coming to class, for making weird sounds, for teaching a freaking dance class (who would have thought?!?!), for telling your stories in circles of strangers, for dancing in front of others, for taking your tops off and baring your bodies, for crying in class and baring your souls, for trusting strangers, for trusting yourselves… you are my inspiration this weekend. I will try to go fill myself up so full that all of the goodness spills out into what I do onto you guys. (Sorry if that sounds gross- it’s meant to look sparkly and shiny and lovely— just so you know:)
Love you. xo